On that day I was on work. It was just too bad. I did not want and I did not know how to succeed in making the meditations. I work taking care of a handicapped person in his home. Its a hole house full of handicapped people with their helpers. This day was Wednesday and there were served common food in the common room. Some people came voluntarily and cooked for these people.
I put Steen (is his name) down there to eat and I succeed the first meditation, concentration and all. Sometimes I had to go out looking through a big window from where I could see the hole table eating and that Steen was alright. He has scleroses and he is shaking a lot when f.eks. eating. Actually I should be there eating with him, but I used the excuse that I am a vegetarian, and that I had to make my own food.
The meditation was enlightening a good beginning and it promoted me to seek for a possibility to continue with the second one. I kind of put it all up to the Divine to help me.
I went down a couple of times to show my face, I tried to hurry them up, but now they were going for desert and I just wouldn’t be able to reach the meditation. Then I came with the white lie that I had a very urgent telephone call and asked them if it was all right to take it, if they could "take care" of Steen? Yes they said yes.
"What will happen to me in 777 billions of billions of years? Will I still exist then? Am I immortal or not?" This was the meditation for me from Grieg.
This meditation came to me strongly. I felt the freedom of my soul, I felt the immense courage from realizing that this soul of mine is verily eternal. It is like the movie “Groundhog day”, where the main character is waking up every morning to the same day. Because of this he becomes much more adventurous and daring, testing out (actually inquiring into) the reality of his life, he becomes very clear of what he wants and what the purpose of his life is!
These kind of experiences was back up by and immense love for my master and later for all human beings and for my own wonderful being, that I know so well and yet so little of.
We don’t realize that everything here is love in action, and that we are nobody. Nowhere became now here! "Neither me nor Mine". We should live everyday as in the void, the full void and then when we open our eyes we should realize that what we see and experience through our five senses is love in action. The world is God in disguise! I am my own disguise! My body is not who I really am, and all my propelling thoughts is neither who I really am,- then who am I?
Who would I be in 777 billions of billions of years?
Finally it knocked heavily on the door and the cook the mama was very upset that I did not take care of Steen and that I stayed away for so long time!
I rushed down, the meditation was over I missed only the gratitude towards God. I gave thanks anyway on my way down. A dwarf said in fun that they would withdraw my salary for the two hours I had not been there.
I have been working taking care of Steen for 4 years!
On the last day of the seven days where we should watch out for synchronicity, the mother of Steen had been told about me not being with Steen on that day, and she sent off a letter to the boss, - and I was fired from this work. It was not completely fair, but yet it was. Most of all I felt the Divine so powerfully present for me in my life. It was about time to stop that work anyway, and I am so grateful now. I have been lulled on that work and now everything stands open again for me being real. The divine meditation has altered my life in a profound way. I was able to be fired with a smile and being happy and totally relaxed, where my co-workers were rather shocked of this sudden firing of me.
This was a very clear guiding GRACE of the divine in my case. I thank you, my Father and Grieg - my Guide in this life and hopefully many more.
Vajrananda, Copenhagen, Denmark, Natha